the life of pi

inaccurate

2009-11-07T10:22:00.000-08:00

More than a week went by, I started my classes and got a job with a professor of psychology and I made some friends, most of them freshmen who lived in my dorm. Friends is an inaccurate word to use. We just ate our meals together, saw each other coming and going, but were mainly thrown together by the fact that none of us seem to know anybody - a situation which at that time, did not seem necessarily unpleasant.

-D.Tartt.

01.01.09

2009-01-01T01:31:00.000-08:00

Trying to forgive when I am just beginning to heal undermines my healing process.

frame cards

2008-12-21T14:34:00.000-08:00

has it really been six months? B is in hiding now, some assy northern town in Canada. Brescia's not enough, go bore yourself with wrist weights and the pressure to be fit. I hate cheating bastards especially those who hide behind the synod.

end of an era

2008-06-29T20:51:00.000-07:00

see now this is what happens, B when conceit sets in.

you tend to say shit things.

just give it a rest now.

and you, too. enjoy your life, walk away from the gossip and the attention greed.

you are just like them now.

attention ho.

no comment

2008-04-07T03:49:00.000-07:00

..and really you shouldn't resolve all your insecurities by being nasty or controversial. If you're not attractive enough by your standards, let it go. Stop the terror on other people, isn't it enough that you are terrorized by your face everyday?

and yes, this entry is for you, professor.

especially designed for Brian Gorrell

2008-04-03T07:39:00.000-07:00

For Brian Gorrell's blog.

I JUST HAD TO

2008-04-01T09:23:00.000-07:00

I've been reading the blog that Pitex sent me, a blog on certain people I know. They won't remember me because I'm always on the sidelines when they have the crazies at Polo. And they look down on me because my Mom's family isn't rich and she doesn't pretend at all. She could, you know, do an Emily Relucio thing and parade my Dad's money but she doesn't. What do they know about true romance? So I just scroll scroll scroll through the nasties and the banshees but this one comment bothered the grips out of my white knuckles.

Anonymous said "Brian, we support you, but sometimes your words can cut us like a dagger to the heart. Please be careful in what you write. Remember your supporters are not beautiful white Australians, but common average Pinoys."
_________________

I'm a common average Pinay. I am proud to be one. Because the common average Pinay is honest.
Because the common average Pinay is honest.
I am one.
Now tell me, who are you?

my Jewish blind date

2008-04-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

June 10

School will soon be over and now I don't want it to end. B and I are having such a good time. Neither one of us is popular with the boys but sometimes B has to go out with the Jewish sons of her mother's friends. She says it's usually a big bore and the boys don't like her any more than she likes them, but Jewish families are like that, they want their kids to marry Jewish kids. Some night B is going to set me up on a blind date with a "nice Jewish boy" to quote her mother. B says he'll love it because I'm not Jewish and he'll feel he's putting something over on his mother. I think I will like him already!

easy to stay off

2008-03-31T12:19:00.000-07:00

October 19

Chris and I sat around the park all day thinking things over. He's been using drugs for over a year and I've been using since July 10 to be exact. We've decided it would be impossible to change while we're here so we're going to cut out and go to San Francisco. And I've simply got to turn Richie into the police. I'm not being vindictive or spiteful or jealous, really I'm not. It's just that I've got to do something to protect all those high school kids. All this crap Rich sold me about "they'll get it someplace" and all that is just a bunch of high school crap bullshit. He doesn't care about anyone in this whole world but himself, and the only way I can make retribution for what I've done is to at least keep him from getting more kids started.

That's one of the worst things about this drug business. Practically every kid that uses also sells and it's just a giant round robin thing that keeps on getting bigger and bigger until I wonder where it will ever end! I really do! I wish I'd never gotten started. Chris and I have both pledged to each other that we're going to stay clean. We really and truly are! In San Francisco, we won't know a single soul that uses and it will be easy to stay off.

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