I am about to start my diet tomorrow.

It's the third day of being on HCG, I take it in tablet form every morning, first thing.   I let it melt under my tongue, I don't take anything, not even water for the next 30 minutes.

June 2, 2012 SATURDAY  DAY 1.
Gorging day!


I took the HCG pill as directed.  Took a regularity pill.  Went out to have a steak. With creamed spinach, and a regular Coke.


At night I had wine, cheese, oysters, and breaded lamb belly with cilantro mayonnaise and a regular Coke.  I didn't realize my normal is now my 'GORGE.'

I'm afraid!!!! But I will do this!!!  I now weigh X amount and I plan to lose 30lbs by August.  Let's see! How exciting.

Took another regularity and must admit, it does help.  LOL.

June 3, 2012 SUNDAY DAY 2.
Still Gorging!

Woke up at 10am, took the HCG pill.  Went out to have brown sauced chicken, fish with coconut milk, dessert, regular Coke.

I'm still full for dinner, but I shall eat white bread with cheese before sleeping!  The no carb stretch starts tomorrow!!!!!

I have a feeling I'm imagining it, but I do feel thinner tonight.

inaccurate

More than a week went by, I started my classes and got a job with a professor of psychology and I made some friends, most of them freshmen who lived in my dorm. Friends is an inaccurate word to use. We just ate our meals together, saw each other coming and going, but were mainly thrown together by the fact that none of us seem to know anybody - a situation which at that time, did not seem necessarily unpleasant.


-D.Tartt.

01.01.09

Trying to forgive when I am just beginning to heal undermines my healing process.

frame cards

has it really been six months? B is in hiding now, some assy northern town in Canada. Brescia's not enough, go bore yourself with wrist weights and the pressure to be fit. I hate cheating bastards especially those who hide behind the synod.

end of an era

see now this is what happens, B when conceit sets in.

you tend to say shit things.

just give it a rest now.

and you, too. enjoy your life, walk away from the gossip and the attention greed.

you are just like them now.

attention ho.

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..and really you shouldn't resolve all your insecurities by being nasty or controversial. If you're not attractive enough by your standards, let it go. Stop the terror on other people, isn't it enough that you are terrorized by your face everyday?

and yes, this entry is for you, professor.

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